The state of my being - My Subconcious Alter Ego

No... My state of being doesn't concern any lyrical poetries but from the subconcious of my mind, or more specifically, the person I live as in my dreams.

Had a dream last night.. Don't remember much of it except that it was rather odd yet comforting and passionate at the same time. Here's how it goes...

Scene 1: I missedd a flight to somewhere, not sure to where exactly..and being driven off in a pretty darn nice car..

Scene 2: Was in a very luxurious setting...glass panels, marble floorings (I think) and effect lightings, most likely a hotel...

Scene 3: Not really sure which area in the "hotel" I was at but I saw Ing Haw and a few others I seem to know...

Scene 4: Was trying to get away from something, then looking up to see 2 people, one apparently my alter ego's significant other (not my boyfriend, unfortunately) which I remember being absolutely gorgeous in a purple-based striped shirt and a fitting black suit...despite the fact that I never really got a clear look of his face...

Scene 5: In the elevator with my alter ego's other half, holding hands..and I remember him holding me really close, and it actually felt really good..warm, loving and passionate... Too real to be true..

Scene 6: Stupid Malcolm Eng called and woke me up...

Ok..that was it..

I don't know if it is counted as cheating on my other half even though it happened in my dreams...but it really felt really good, nothing like what I've ever felt before with anyone... It's not that I care for my boyfriend any less than before.. It's just that... I don't know... It felt so good...so real...

Damn you, my subconcious self...

The state of my being - Santa Claus Is Comin' To Town!

Feeling really Christmas-y this couple of days, could be because Toto (my employer) and Raymond's (Toto's friend) setting up of the Christmas Tree in Cafe Cafe and Banquet has got me smitten in the cheer of Christmas. OR it could be the fact that I told off my "so-called" Manager for being rude to me. He's such a bully but I won't go into it, might spoil my holiday spirits (eventhough I'm working during Christmas and New Year's).

Been getting the urge to make cookies and made my first last night! Chocolate..yumm yumm.. Cinnamon and raisins or ginger and nutmeg next? Hmm...

Santa Claus Is Comin' To Town

You better watch out
You better not cry
You better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town

He's making a list, Checking it twice;
Gonna find out who's naughty or nice.
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town

He sees you when you're sleeping
He knows when you're awake
He knows if you've been bad or good
So be good for goodness sake

With little tin horns and little toy drums
Rooty toot toots and rummy tum tums
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town

He sees you when you're sleeping
He knows when you're awake
He knows if you've been bad or good
So be good for goodness sake Goodness sake

You better watch out
You better not cry
You better not pout
I'm telling you why
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming to town
Santa Claus is coming
Santa Claus is coming
Santa Claus is coming to town
(Coming to town)

Santa's a busy man he has no time to play
He's got millions of stockings to fill on Christmas day
(Santa Claus is coming to town)
(Coming to town)
(Santa Claus is coming to town)
(Coming to town)

The state of my being - I'd wait for life

It's hard to keep a blog, especially when I don't know what to say most of the time. To run events, occasions in my head is easier than running my fingers on the keyboard, unlike my siblings. The best that I can do to relate who I am is through the words written by others when I'm incapable of my own words.

The words below are of two very recent occurrences that has left me to feel broken and empty, in my thoughts and sentiment.


Take That - I'd wait for life

There's a place we used to be
There's a face that I used to see
There's a picture with you by my side
There's a moment that I want to find.

I don't know where to start
Or how to begin
But I know I love you still.

If you ever turn away
If you ever change your mind
If the road ahead becomes too hard to climb
If there's something in your heart that tells you to stop
Oh to hold you close tonight
I'd wait for life.

There's a voice shouting inside my head
There's a space on your side of the bed
There's a hope everytime there's a sound
There's a silence that's playing too loud

I don't know where you are
Or how you may be
But I know I love you still.

If I close my eyes I'll dream a little deeper baby
'Cause you are always on my mind
Yeah you are always on my mind
For life.